love

I still feel it and finally it’s not so crazy since I am bleeding again, and I think on time.

But you know recently I heard from someone, true or not not sure I must do research, that females being regular is a joke.  Who knows but it has given me at least the false relief about being more healthy and able to maybe have kids eventually.

I am not sure what to think when people say that it sounds like I have a plan.  I talk about wanting kids, about business and trying new things, in a very general sense with all three of those things but still, and I want to protest that.  Like, ” No, well, um maybe I guess, I mean I am not sure….”

I am sure that yes thank you would work just fine.

Humble.

Acknowledging someone’s kindness is a big deal to me and I think that it makes a difference.

I am reading The Ethical Slut again and I like it.  I understand more because I have more experiences to apply to what I am reading.  I was reading the part about lovers listening to one another, specifically when something is difficult.  The book mentioned repeating, in your own words, what you understand the other person to be saying.  And this I find helpful as we all use different words for things that often carry different or slightly different meanings.  I was talking with a new good friend of mine today and deceided to try it out and it was awesome.  It was challenging for me to search for the right words but they felt like I definitely heard them and I felt like I understood their language and them a lot better.  Not to say that their was a misunderstanding by any means but that our percentage of understanding those particular words and what they were talking about then was super high and was confirmed right then and there that indeed we were on the same track.

xoxo

love you all.

France in the spring.

As of earlier this year I thought that it would be fun to go to France and check it out.  And I was hanging out with Tom not too long ago and he has friends and family over there so we’re going!  Having a place to stay and friend to meet or go with is awesome for any trip.  So this is my to do list before, what, late March early April?

To Do:

learn some French  -   I bought a book and started looking at colors and cut out the flash cards.

save money  -  that might involve moving to a room with a bed rather than the spacious room I have now.

Buy a plane ticket  -  expensive but not sure when to buy

get a slightly larger suitcase  -  to bring stuff back with, I am actually getting better at not packing too much.

Go  -  sweet!

 

I have been thinking about starting an additional blog about sex or maybe just doing password protected posts through here with sex and connection related posts.  I love talking and you all know that but I am so fascinated by the communication that happens surrounding sex and attraction.  My mom among other friends read this too and after a great conversation with her the other day we don’t really share the same ideas about sex or open relationships and, well anyways, expect something else interesting from here too.  More than likely it will be just linked through here for your reading pleasure, if you so choose.

I am in love….

with NYC.  Is that possible.  I think that it is.  I feel so good living here.  I know I have mentioned it before, maybe I haven’t but this has been the most rewarding, seemingly easy until it’s not move ever.  I have some great new friends that I think, I hope, will be in my life for a long time.  Work is crazy busy, I just worked 8 days in a row and three days off in a row next week.  And I am taking a tour, finally, of the French Culinary Institute.!!!!!

 

going out tonight, I put my lip ring back in!