love

I still feel it and finally it’s not so crazy since I am bleeding again, and I think on time.

But you know recently I heard from someone, true or not not sure I must do research, that females being regular is a joke.  Who knows but it has given me at least the false relief about being more healthy and able to maybe have kids eventually.

I am not sure what to think when people say that it sounds like I have a plan.  I talk about wanting kids, about business and trying new things, in a very general sense with all three of those things but still, and I want to protest that.  Like, ” No, well, um maybe I guess, I mean I am not sure….”

I am sure that yes thank you would work just fine.

Humble.

Acknowledging someone’s kindness is a big deal to me and I think that it makes a difference.

I am reading The Ethical Slut again and I like it.  I understand more because I have more experiences to apply to what I am reading.  I was reading the part about lovers listening to one another, specifically when something is difficult.  The book mentioned repeating, in your own words, what you understand the other person to be saying.  And this I find helpful as we all use different words for things that often carry different or slightly different meanings.  I was talking with a new good friend of mine today and deceided to try it out and it was awesome.  It was challenging for me to search for the right words but they felt like I definitely heard them and I felt like I understood their language and them a lot better.  Not to say that their was a misunderstanding by any means but that our percentage of understanding those particular words and what they were talking about then was super high and was confirmed right then and there that indeed we were on the same track.

xoxo

love you all.